有没有这样一个人 她让你神魂颠倒？
Have you ever met someone that consumed your thoughts?
让你无视周围的一切人和事？
Made everything and everyone else just disappear?
遇见她之后你再也无法对其他人倾心
How can you settle for anything less after that?
五年前 纽约
我听不懂你在说什么
I don't understand what you're saying.
你他妈到底怎么了？
What the hell is the matter with you?
嘿！
Hey!
你得冷静 我在试着帮你
You gotta hold still, I'm trying to help you.
走开！
Get away!
听着 我不知道她会在那 好吗？
Look, I did not know she was gonna be there all right.
放屁
No.
我向上帝发誓
I swear to God.
哦 文森特 那一幕戏真的是写给我的吗？
Oh, Vincent, did you really write that scene for me?
你现在太他妈小题大做了！
You're just fucking exaggerating now!
她根本不会演戏
She cannot even act.
你为什么要这么做？
Why are you doing this?
你自认为很有才华 是吗？
You think you're so talented, eh?
自以为是的家伙
That's what you think.
你所有的电影都是狗屎 懂吗？
All your movies are shit, okay?
除了那个愚蠢的荡妇没人愿意和你一起工作
No one wants to work with you except that stupid slut.
过来
Come here.
你活该
See what you get?
你真他妈的疯了
You're fucking crazy, you know that?
是啊 你自找的！
Yeah and you love it!
他妈的疯了
Fucking crazy.
安丽莎
Annalisa.
安丽莎
Annalisa.
安丽莎？
Annalisa?
亲爱的文森特 我很抱歉
Dear Vincent, I'm sorry,
但我不能再这样下去了
but I cannot live like this anymore.
这样下去我们和我们的爱都会毁于一旦
We are killing each other and the beautiful love we share.
我们需要分开一些时间
We need some time apart.
我现在要飞回家和我妈妈呆在一起
I'm flying back home to stay with my Mom for now.
我到了就给你打电话
I'll call you when I arrive.
我很抱歉 但我不知道该怎么做
I'm sorry, but I didn't know what else to do.
爱你的 安丽莎
Love, Annalisa.
现在 马耳他 欧洲
马
耳
“她”
我想拍一部关于爱情的电影
I wanted to make a film about love.
我想拍一部关于……
I wanted to make a film about...
我对这部电影的看法
My vision for this film.
该死的
Goddammit.
我想探讨一下我人生中的某段时光
I wanted to explore a time in my life.
我想拍一部关于爱情的电影
I wanted to make a film about love.
我想拍一部关于……
I wanted to make a film about...
我想拍一部关于那辆他妈的垃圾车的电影
I wanted to make a film about the fucking garbage truck going away.
我就想拍那样一部电影
That's what I wanted to make a film about.
你想做什么？
What are you trying to do?
我想拍一部……
I wanted to make a film that...
好的
Okay.
我想拍一部电影
I wanted to make a film.
我想做什么？
What did I want?
我想知道这是不是真的
I wanted to know if it was real.
我想知道你是不是真的
I wanted to know if you were real.
哦上帝
Oh God.
我不会还爱着那个女人吧 我——
Do not tell me I am still in love with this woman, I--
尼克
Nico.
你准备好了吗？
Are you ready?
呃 还没有
Uh, not really.
你穿上我给你买的西装了吧？
You wear the suit I bought you, right?
没有
No.
哦拜托 伙计
Oh, come on, man.
这是马耳他最大的电影院！
This is the biggest cinema in Malta!
这不是马耳他唯一的电影院吗？
Isn't it the only cinema in Malta?
是的 但它很大
Yes, but it's big.
哦 我们之后还要和那些制片人开个会
Oh, and we have that meeting with those producers later on as well.
是的 我知道
Yeah, I know.
嘿我的朋友 专心点
Hey, my friend, be focused.
这是你职业生涯中最重要的一天
This is the most important day of your career, eh?
我也一样
Of our careers.
哦 文森佐！
Oh, Vincenzo!
我只是不知道我能不能做好这个问答环节 伙计
Look, I just don't know if I can do this Q&A thing, man.
嘿？
Heh?
你当然可以
Of course you can.
我是说 你必须这么做
Well, I mean, you have to.
想象一下房间里没有其他人
Just imagine that no one else is in the room.
是啊 很有用
Yeah, that's gotta work.
你在开玩笑？
You make the joke?
是的尼克 这是开玩笑
Yes, Nico, that was a joke.
一点也不好玩
Not funny.
听着 我
Look, I.
我的妈呀！
Jesus Christ!
你不会敲门吗？
Don't you ever knock?
为什么？
What for?
我有钥匙
I've got the key.
尼克 我得挂了
Nico, I gotta go.
把西装穿上！
Wear the suit!
听着 我有点忙 乔
Look, I'm a little busy here, Joe.
所以 你就自便吧
Yeah, you know what, just help yourself.
你为什么要喝那种酒？
Why you drink that wine?
为什么？
Why?
因为我喜欢它
Because I like it.
我知道有很多比这更好的酒
I know plenty of better wines than that.
呃 我之前在这里的时候经常喝这种酒
Well, it's what I used to drink when I was here.
如果你一直在喝过去的酒
How can you taste the future
你要怎么品味未来呢？
if you keep drinking the past?
你有约会吗？
You have a date?
约会？
A date?
不不 当然不是约会
No, no, definitely not a date.
嗯肯定是 不然你才不会把酒留在这
Well, it should be, you bloody never leave it here.
别担心 我认识一些女孩给你 伙计
Don't worry, I know some girls for you, mate.
哦 当然
Oh, I'm sure you do.
嘿 她们有几个还欠我人情
Hey, some owe me favours.
明白吗？
All right?
我可以问问能不能把那些人情转给你
I can ask if they're transferable.
不 我不用了
You know what, I'm good.
不过谢谢你
Thank you though.
少来吧你！
Ha, that's what you think!
嘿 你找我有什么事情？
Look, is there something I can help you with?
既然你都这么说了 是有一点小事
Now that you mention it, there is a little something.
说真的
Look, no, serious.
好的 我表弟要结婚了
All right, my cousin is getting married.
这是第二次 明白吗
Again, all right.
第一个老婆不行
The first one didn't work out.
她对他不好
She wasn't nice to him.
她甚至都不会做饭
She couldn't even bloody cook.
有一次我去他家吃午饭 真鸡儿难吃
One time I went over for lunch, it was a fucking disaster.
我叫了救护车 消防车 警车
I had to call the ambulance, fire brigade, police department.
那简直是太疯狂了
It was a bloody kershuffle, it was madness.
我把房子和食物一起烧了
Burnt the house down with the food.
烧了 没了
Burnt it, gone.
总之 我一直在思考因为我喜欢思考
Anyway, I was thinking because I think from time to time.
我很喜欢思考生活
I like to think in my life.
有时候一个人需要花很多时间思考
Sometimes a man has to take time and just think, okay?
我的想法是这样的 因为我认识你
So this is what I was thinking because I know you.
而你会拍片子
And you make the video, okay.
他们现在没有多少钱 因为…
That, and they don't have much money now because--
好吧 情况是这样的 乔 我不拍婚礼
Okay, look, the thing is, so, Joe, I don't shoot weddings.
我真的很抱歉
I'm really sorry.
恐怕你得去找别人给他拍 好吗
You're gonna have to find someone else for that one though, pal, all right?
你有相机吗？
You have the camera?
是的 我有一台相机
Yes, Joe, I have a camera.
好的
Okay.
拿起它 对准 按快门
Take it, point it, press the button.
一头蠢驴都会弄
Even a bloody donkey can do it.
我是在卖你个人情 伙计
I'm trying to make you a favour, mate.
提高你在马耳他的知名度 好吗？
Get your name out there in Malta, all right?
如果我现在答应你 你可以走了吗？
If I say yes right now will you leave?
但我不会付你钱的
But for free you shoot it.
我会免费帮你拍的
I would love to shoot it for free.
啊 那说定了 伙计
Ah, that's it, mate. Okay.
成交了 就是这样 好伙计
That's a deal. That's it, good stuff.
不能后悔哦 伙计
That's the lock in contract, mate.
好的
All right.
-好的 下次再聊 -就这样
- Well, talk to you later. - That's it.
签名 密封 交付！
Signed, sealed, and delivered!
没问题 下次再说 伙计
Done, talk to you later, buddy.
我差点忘了 还有一件事
Before I forget, there's one more thing.
租金
The rent.
租金怎么了呢？
What about the rent?
我已经付过了
I already paid you in full.
我知道你付过了
I know you paid it.
现在我要涨价了
Now I need some more.
好吧
Okay.
好的
Okay.
-好的 -好的
- Okay. - Okay.
我会回来的
I'll be back.
我会回来的 我很快会来收的
I'll be back, I'll collect it soon.
明白吗？
Okay?
期待再次见到你
Looking forward to seeing you again.
好的 我会再冲进来的
Okay, I'll pop in again, eh?
因为我喜欢直接冲进来
'Cause I like to pop in.
我不喜欢预约
I don't like to make appointments.
对 你这人是这样
That's what you do.
我不会预约！
I don't make appointments!
-活在当下 兄弟 -最近这几天
- Live in the moment, buddy. - Everything's a bloody
每个人都他妈要求预约
appointment these days.
狗屎啊 就过来说两句话而已
Bloody mate, just come over, talk like a human.
好的 再见
Okay, bye.
伊甸电影院
文森特
Vincent.
文森特！
Vincent!
你又开始抽烟了
You started smoking again.
你在这里做什么？
What are you doing here?
欧洲首映 对吧？
European premiere, right?
我不能错过这个
I couldn't miss this.
怎么 你走出来了吗？
What, did you walk out?
我只是需要一点时间
I just needed a minute.
紧张？
Nervous?
我不敢相信你会来
I can't believe you're here.
我已经来了
I'm here.
呃 文森佐！
Eh, Vincenzo!
那是谁？
Who's that?
我得走了
I have to go.
我们待会可以喝杯咖啡什么的吗？
Can we grab a coffee or something after?
等下会有问答环节
There's gonna be a Q&A.
我可能没有时间
I don't really think I'm gonna have time.
求你了
Please.
冷静点 伙计
Just be cool, man.
冷静
Cool.
安丽莎：拜托
我很喜欢
I loved it.
我只有半个小时的时间
I've only got like half an hour.
我们可以去那家旧酒吧
We can go to our old bar.
你减肥了
You lost weight.
都是压力
Stress.
你还是老样子
You haven't changed.
开始变老了 有皱纹什么的
Starting to get older, wrinkles and everything.
你看起来不错
You look good.
哇你的第一部电影
Wow, your first movie.
我早就知道你能做到的
I knew you would do it.
是啊
Yeah, well.
在问答环节之后听听观众们怎么说的就知道了
We'll see what the audience has to say after the Q&A, right?
谁在乎他们说什么？
Who cares what they say?
这是你的第一部电影
You made your first movie.
我为你感到骄傲
I'm very proud of you.
骄傲
Proud.
当然
Of course.
在纽约的首映怎么样？
How was the premiere in New York?
很好
It was good.
多数好评
Mostly positive reviews.
也有一些差评
A few negatives ones.
不过我尽量不去关注那些
Try not to pay as much attention to those.
所有宣传都是好的宣传
Any publicity's good publicity.
我想是的
I guess so.
那故事看起来很熟悉
Story looked familiar.
是啊 写你所知道的
Yeah, well, write what you know.
他们不就是这么教的吗？
Isn't that what they taught us?
你知道这个故事吗？
And you know this story?
这…
This is, uh.
很疯狂 我知道
Crazy, I know.
我们几年不见了 六年？
What's it been, like six years?
五年
Five.
五年
Five years, uh huh.
是你吗 真的是你吗？
Is that you, is that really you?
我有很多问题
I have so many questions.
我都不知道自己是否还想知道答案
I don't even know if I want the answers anymore.
我想
I do.
全都告诉我吧
Tell me everything.
你结婚了吗？
Are you married?
有孩子吗？
Kids?
还待在纽约？
Still in New York?
你爸爸怎么样？
How is your Dad?
好吧 一个一个问
All right, just one at a time.
你结婚了吗？
Are you married?
没有
No.
有孩子吗？
Kids?
没有 你呢？
No, how about you?
抱歉 有电话
Sorry, excuse me.
不好意思
Excuse me.
所以这地方今天没人干活吗？
So anyone working here today or what?
这里是欧洲
We are in Europe.
没错 在美国是不会这样的
That's true, this would not happen in the States.
放松点 这并不是一件坏事
Relax, it's not such a bad thing.
我想念你爸爸
I miss your Dad, you know.
他很有趣 我真的爱他
He's so funny, I really love him.
是的
Yeah.
怎么了？
What's wrong?
他死了
He died.
什么？
What?
哦我的上帝
Oh my God.
怎么死的？
How?
什么时候？
When?
大概一年前的事了
It was like over a year ago now.
你没告诉我？
And you didn't tell me?
怎么回事？
What happened?
他得了胰腺癌
It was pancreatic cancer.
实际上医生是偶然发现的
They found it by accident, actually.
那个病…
It was...
很糟糕
Not good.
我很抱歉
I'm sorry.
医生们也没办法吗？
The doctors, couldn't they do anything?
癌症发展得太快了
It was too aggressive.
发现的时候已经太迟了
They caught it too late.
你知道 他讨厌去看医生
You know, he hated going to doctors and stuff like that.
我很抱歉
I'm so sorry.
哦我的上帝
Oh my God.
我经常想起他
I think about him often.
真的
Yeah. I really do.
他那么可爱
He was such a lovely man.
不过他也是个发了疯的混蛋
I mean, he was a crazy son of a bitch though.
你知道的
You know that.
文森特
Vincent.
说真的….
It's true like...
为什么一个人死后
Why is it that when somebody dies everybody
周围的人就会把他看做圣人呢？
makes them out to be saints, you know?
这太扯淡了
It's bullshit.
难道一个人死了
Just because someone's dead we can't
我们就记不得他本来是好是坏了？
remember them for who they really were, good and bad?
他就是个疯子
He was fucking crazy.
你知道 他的神经非常敏感
You know, he had the fuse of a matchstick.
他也有一颗善良的心
He also had a heart of gold.
我爱他 毕竟他是我爸爸
I love him, I mean, he was my Dad.
他给了我很多严厉的爱
There was a lot of tough love there,
但他愿意为他所关心的人做任何事
but he would do anything for the people that he cared about.
这没错
That's true.
他无疑是个特立独行的人
He definitely marched to the beat of his own drum.
并不在乎别人怎么看他
Didn't care what anybody else thought about him.
他常说 “每个人都会死去”
Everyone has to go, he used to say.
“别把自己当例外”
Don't act like you won't.
好建议
Good advice.
是的
Yeah.
是的 不过我直到他死后才明白他的意思
Yeah, didn't really sink in until he died though.
我认为这给了我拍电影的力量
I think it actually gave me the strength to make a movie.
真的吗？
Really?
是啊 我担心了很长时间 你知道的
Yeah, I was terrified for a long time, you know.
如果人们不喜欢我的作品怎么办？
What if people don't like my work?
如果我不像自己想的一样那么好怎么办？
What if I'm not as good as I thought I was?
如果我的野心远远超过了我的才能呢？
What if my ambition far exceeds my talent?
类似的事情
Just all that stuff.
我觉得一个人只有真正失去过什么之后
I think it takes real loss to realise
才会明白自己其实没有什么可失去的
that you don't have anything to lose, you know?
你想他
You miss him.
是的
Yeah.
不管怎样
So anyway.
这些天你在做什么？
What are you doing with yourself these days?
我在时尚界
I'm in fashion.
我没想到
Big surprise.
嘿！
Hey!
我只是说说而已
I'm just saying.
我们在纽约的时候 每路过一家商店
We couldn't go passed a single shop in New York
你都会把我拖进去
without you dragging me in there.
你知道有一次我在等你的时候
You know, there was one time I edited an entire short film
用笔记本剪好了一整部短片
on my laptop while I was waiting for you.
放屁吧
Bullshit.
真的
It's true.
那些运用场面调度和一镜到底的小片子
It was the mise-en-scene, the one-shot film.
我们上学的时候经常看
We used to watch them in class.
这就像奥逊威尔斯的《历劫佳人》
It was like the openings of Orson Welles, Touch of Evil.
和P.T.安德森的《不羁夜》的开头部分一样
P.T. Anderson, Boogie Nights.
你还记得吗？
You remember all that?
如果都是一镜到底的 那有什么好剪的呢？
If it was one-shot then what was there to edit?
呃 标题之类的东西
The titles and stuff, I mean.
我只是想说
I don't know, I'm just saying.
你在商店里真的能逛很久
You spent a lot of times in shops.
拜托
Come on.
扛着所有的设备 相机的灯光
Carrying all that equipment, camera lights.
还能做剪辑 太疯狂了
And all the editing, too crazy.
我喜欢时尚
I like fashion.
这让我觉得很舒服
It's easy for me.
那是因为你在做你喜欢的事
That's 'cause you're doing what you love.
你知道 如果你在做你喜欢的事
You know, if you're doing what you love,
就不会考虑其他的生活方式了 对吧？
there's no other way to live, right?
所以你还是喜欢拍电影？
So you still love filmmaking?
嗯
Mm.
我不知道
I don't know.
问答环节之后我再告诉你
I'll tell you after the Q&A.
拜托 别卖关子了
Come on, stop stressing.
我只是说 电影学校一直不适合你
I'm just saying, film school was never for you.
每次我看你 你都在画鞋子
Every time I looked at you, you were drawing shoes
或者类似的东西
or something like that.
别跟我说你在做鞋子
Don't tell me your making shoes?
是设计
Designing.
设计鞋子
Designing shoes.
而且是意大利最大的品牌
For like the biggest Italian labels.
哦 是吗？
Oh, no shit?
我是认真的！
I'm serious!
哇
Wow.
看样子你等待的时光终于有了成果
All that time waiting around actually amounted to something, huh?
嗯非常有趣
Hm, very funny.
我可能不像你那样会讲故事
I might not be telling stories like you,
但是当我看到女人穿着我设计的鞋子时
but when I see women wearing shoes that I designed,
她们看起来强壮 自信 性感
and they look strong, confident, and sexy,
这让我很开心
it makes me happy.
开心就好
Happy is good.
是啊 开心就好
Yeah, happy is good.
你还没有告诉我你现在有没有男人
You never told me if you had a man or not.
这很复杂
It's complicated.
我现在不想谈这个
I don't really wanna talk about it right now.
我很抱歉 文森特
I'm sorry, Vincent.
为什么？
For what?
为一切
You know, for everything.
那是很久以前的事了 别再想了
That's a long time ago, just forget about it.
我只是…
I just...
我不知道
I didn't know.
是的
Yep.
好的 我马上就到了
Yeah, look, I'm just around the corner.
好的
Okay.
我得走了
I gotta go.
我们才刚坐下来
We just sat down.
我们连饮料都没点呢
We didn't even have a drink.
我大老远的过来
I came all this way.
是为了什么？
For what?
又不是我叫你来的
I didn't ask you to come here.
我也不知道你来这里做什么
I still don't really know what you're doing here.
但很高兴见到你
Look, um, it was nice seeing you and everything.
看到你过得挺好我很高兴 不过…
I'm glad you're doing well, I just...
祝你好运 好吗？
Good luck, all right?
我得走了
I gotta go.
文森特！
Vincent!
文森特！
Vincent!
你想干什么？
What do you want?
我只是想谈谈
I just want to talk.
现在才想谈谈？
Now you wanna talk?
我说了我很抱歉
I told you I was sorry.
对 道个歉就万事大吉了
'Cause that makes everything all better.
文森特
Vincent.
已经过去五年了
Look, it has been five years.
他妈的五年呢
It's been five fucking years.
我试着联系你很多次
I tried getting in touch with you a bunch of times,
但你从来不回复
but you never replied.
你只有在和男友快分手的时候
You tried getting in touch with me
才会想起来打电话给我
when things were on the rocks with your boyfriend.
你在胡说些什么
You don't know what you're talking about.
你知道吗 我已经不在乎了
You know what, I don't care anymore.
如果你不关心的话 我们就不会有这次对话了
If you didn't care, we wouldn't be having this conversation.
哦 那这次狗屁对话就到此为止吧 安丽莎
Well, we're not having the fucking conversation, Annalisa.
《对天堂的爱》 他的处女作
Love for Paradise. For his debut movie.
请大家热烈鼓掌
Please, big round of applause.
你冷静下来了吗？
Have you calmed down yet?
电影怎么样？
How did it go?
你怎么会知道我在这里？
How'd you know I'd be here?
约会的时候我跟踪了你的手机
I micro-chipped you when we were dating.
我并不惊讶
Wouldn't surprise me.
能给我一根吗？
Can I have one?
可以
Yeah.
你在听什么？
What are you listening to?
我在纽约的朋友
It's my buddy back in New York.
我们一起做了几首歌
We worked on a few songs together.
你现在也做音乐了吗？
You make music now too?
我写歌词 他做音乐
Just the lyrics, he does the music.
哇他很厉害
Wow, he's good.
为什么？
Why?
我当时年轻
I was young.
困惑
Confused.
我们本来可以谈谈
We could've talked about it.
我必须离开
I had to get away.
逃离什么 我吗？
Away from what, me?
逃离一切
From everything.
你离开了我
You left me.
你离开了我们
You left us.
我知道
I know.
你知道我回去看到你不在
Do you know how it made me feel
心里是什么感受吗？
when I came back and you weren't there?
你把事情搞得一团糟
You fucked it all up.
都是我的错？
Just me?
难道我们的感情没有问题吗？
Our relationship didn't have problems?
你都根本不关心我了
You wouldn't even do anything with me anymore.
一直扑在你的电影上
Always working on your movies.
拍摄 剪辑
Shooting, editing.
看电影做研究
Watching movies for research.
你只知道研究
Everything was research.
当我们一起看电影的时候我连一句话都说不出来
I couldn't even say a word when we watched a movie together.
你爱电影胜过爱我
You loved your movies more than you loved me.
你这么觉得吗？
Is that what you think?
我们有问题 好吗？
We had problems, okay?
每一段感情都有问题
Every relationship has problems.
你不能逃避 你得把他们解决
You don't just leave, you work 'em out.
也许我当时没办法解决
Maybe I couldn't work them out then.
也许你只是不想那么做
Maybe you just didn't want to.
我现在回来了
I'm here now.
是的
Yeah.
是啊 都过了五年了你才回来
Yeah, now you're here, five years later.
有时我也会穿过东村的公园
There would be times that I'd be walking through the park in East Village.
汤普森广场公园
Thompson Square Park.
是汤普金斯
Tompkins.
我没说错啊
That's what I said.
不对 是汤普金斯 不是汤普森
No, it's Tompkins, not Thompson.
汤普森汤普金斯 有什么区别吗？
Thompson, Tompkins, what's the difference?
这是两个不同的名字
It's a different name.
哦上帝
Oh God.
有些事情就是不会改变 对吗？
Some things don't change, eh?
你知道我不是像你一样说着英语长大的
You know I didn't grow up speaking English like you.
好吧
Okay.
有时我会把名字弄混
Sometimes I get it mixed up.
不过有什么关系呢？
What's the problem?
我就不会弄混
I don't have a problem.
就差一个字母 汤普森汤普金斯
One letter, Thompson, Tompkins.
这是两个完全不同的名字
It's a completely different name.
好吧 你说两句西班牙语试试？
Okay, you try and speak Spanish, eh?
然后你就懂了
Then we see.
我能每一秒都在纠正你！
I correct you every fucking second!
你果然也还是老样子
And Annalisa's back.
汤普森汤普金斯！
Thompson, Tompkins!
能让我说完吗？
Can I just finish what I was saying?
不！
No!
说吧
Go.
听着
Look.
有时我会从公园里走出来
There was times that I'd be walking back from the park.
我会突然停住
And I would just like freeze.
突然就动不了
You know, I literally couldn't move.
我在哪里都能看到我们的回忆
I would just see memories of us everywhere.
这麻痹了我的脚步
And it paralysed me.
有一次我拍完一个镜头回家
There was this one time I was coming home from a shoot
带着我所有的设备和其他东西
carrying all my equipment and everything
有个人朝我走过来 我以为他是来帮我的
and this guy comes up to me and I think he's gonna help me,
但他却拿起我的三脚架跑了
but then he runs off with my tripod.
是我给你买的那个三脚架吗
The tripod I bought for you.
我想告诉你被你抛弃是什么感觉
I'm trying to tell you how it made me feel when you abandoned me,
你却只想到你的礼物被偷了
and all you can think about is a stolen gift.
所以就是我给你的那个？
So it was the one?
是啊
Yeah.
你知道我花了多少钱吗？
Do you know how much I paid for that?
你为什么不回我的电话？
Why didn't you return my calls?
我知道我错了
I know, I handled it all wrong.
这也太他妈轻描淡写了
That's a fucking understatement.
我很抱歉
I'm sorry.
听着 我得走了
Look, I have to go.
为什么？
For what?
我有一个晚餐会议
I have a dinner meeting.
和谁？
With who?
关你什么事？
What's it matter?
我只是好奇
I'm just curious.
和一个制作人 好吗？
With a producer, all right?
他想和我谈一谈合作的事情
He set up a meeting about a co-production.
要在马耳他再拍一部电影吗
Another film in Malta.
也许吧
Maybe.
你还有多少时间？
How much time do you have?
大概几个小时吧
I don't know, like a few hours.
你准备个会议需要这么长时间吗？
Does it take you that long to get ready?
你也配说我
Look who's talking.
好的
Okay.
怎么 你想干嘛？
Why, what'd you have in mind?
还记得我们在这里度假吗？
Remember that vacation we had here?
是的 我记得
Yes, I remember it.
我刚拍了一部关于它的电影
I just made a movie about it.
你想找点乐子吗？
Do you want to have some fun or not?
哦好啊
Oh yeah.
你是说说而已
Are you just saying that
还是真的想找点乐子？
or do you really want to have some fun?
不 我真的想找点乐子
No, trust me, I really wanna have some fun.
它在那里
It was there.
蓝窗是戈佐岛最为著名的景点和整个马耳他的必游之处
“蓝窗”就在那里
The Azure Window was right there.
你说得对
You're right.
你现在都不知道
You wouldn't even know now.
这很悲哀
It's sad.
马耳他人失去了一些真正属于他们的东西
The Maltese people lost something that was truly a part of them.
但现在呢？
And now it's what?
那不过是海底的一堆岩石
It's just a bunch of rocks at the bottom of the sea.
我认为这取决于你如何看待它 就像所有事情一样
I think it depends how you look at it, like everything.
事实是它又回到了它来的地方
The fact is it went back to where it came from.
什么？
What?
几百万年以前 穿过巨大的海洋和一切
Millions of years ago, that formation was made
蓝窗才得以形成
through giant seas and everything.
现在它又被创造它的自然所摧毁
Now its collapsed by the same nature that created it.
你说那是真正属于我们的 但什么是真正属于我们的？
You say things are ours, but what is really ours?
我们真正拥有什么？
What do we really own?
我们的想法和经历
Our thoughts and experiences.
仅此而已
That's it.
其他的一切都随时可能失去
Anything can be taken from us at any time.
我们越早接受这一点 我们才能越快
The sooner we accept that, the sooner we can cope
面对生活带给我们的一切
with whatever life throws at us.
那是什么意思呢？
What does that mean though?
因为害怕最终会失去
You live your life detached from everything
所以生活里就要无欲无求？
for fear of eventually losing it?
这样的话 那去接触新的人和事
I mean, what's the point of getting close
还有什么意义呢？
to anything or anyone for that matter?
不是 恰恰相反
No, it's the opposite.
你不能活在对失望和失去的恐惧之中
You can't live your life in fear of disappointment and loss.
但就是这样 我们从来没有真正失去任何东西
But that's the thing, we never really lose anything.
我们必须培养和关心身边人们和事物
We have to nurture and care for people and things
在我们还拥有他们的时候
we have when we have them.
但当这些东西从我们身边拿走的时候
But we have to be okay with accepting
我们也必须接受
when these things are taken from us.
这就是生活 我们阻止不了它
That's life, we can't stop it.
但是我们可以控制我们的反应
But we can control our reactions.
就像这个蓝窗
Like this Azure Window.
它很神奇 是个奇迹
It was amazing, a wonder,
但它是由自然或者其他什么东西创造的
but it was formed by nature, or whatever you believe.
然后又以同样的方式被夺走
And taken back by the same.
我们必须接受这一点
We have to be okay with that.
对我们拥有的东西心存感激
Be thankful for what we have when we have it.
关心我们能控制的东西
Concern ourselves with what we can control
别去管能力之外的东西
not things we can't.
要学会放弃
Be okay with letting go.
就像你放弃了我一样？
Just like you let go of me?
真是戏精！
Such a drama queen!
当我搬回欧洲的时候 我感觉好多了
When I moved back to Europe, I felt a lot more comfortable.
从文化上来说 你知道
- Mm. - Just culturally, you know.
哦 小心点
Oh, careful.
-操！-你没事吧？
- Fuck! - You okay?
是的 我没事 我没事
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm fine, I'm fine.
抱歉 抱歉 我很好
Sorry, sorry, I'm fine.
我只是说文化差异
I was just saying the cultural differences.
-是的 -就像这里的每个人
- Yeah. - Like everyone runs
抽的都是昂贵的香烟
on expensive cigarettes here.
我并不介意
I'm good with that.
在纽约 没有人吸烟
In New York, no one smokes.
他们疯狂健身 疯狂养生
They are gym crazy, health crazy.
所有东西都要有维生素
Vitamins for everything.
这个来一点 那个来一点
Stuff for this, something for that.
他们痴迷于健康和卡路里
They're obsessed about health and calories,
但是他们看起来比欧洲人更不健康
but they seem more unhealthy in their own way than Europeans.
你坐在那里拿着一盘肉菜饭
You sit there with a plate of paella
他们就把你当笑话看
and they look at you funny.
你之前在纽约经常做肉菜饭
You used to cook paella very day for us in New York.
你在说什么呢？
What the hell are you talking about?
我一直吃肉菜饭 好吗？
I will always eat paella, okay?
因为我是西班牙人
I'm Spanish.
我只是说这对美国人来说很奇怪
I'm just saying it's weird for Americans.
在欧洲 健康不是什么大问题
Here in Europe, there is not this big thing about health.
就好像在这里抽烟不会得癌症一样
It's like cigarettes don't give you cancer over here or something.
不不不
No, no, no.
不管什么人在哪里抽烟 都是会得癌症的
Cigarettes are giving everyone cancer everywhere, trust me.
所以你又开始吸烟了？
That's why you started smoking again?
指又开始吸烟了
我可能摔下马车了
I fell off the wagon for a little bit.
我会回到车上去的
I'll get back on.
你是说摔上马车吧
You mean on the wagon.
不 是摔下
No, it's off the wagon.
不 马车不好
No, the wagon is bad.
不 马车是好的
No, wagon is good.
但摔在马车上就像陷阱
But on the wagon is like the trap.
你掉进了陷阱
You fall in the trap.
不 陷阱是掉进去的 不是掉上去的
No, the trap is off not on.
这说不通
That doesn't make sense.
是有点奇怪
Is it a little strange.
我觉得他们应该改改
I think they should change it.
你愿意当一个大使
Would you like to be the ambassador
来促使国际对“马车”做出改变吗？
for the international change on the wagon?
摔下马车
Off the wagon.
啊好了
Ah, there you go.
尼克
Nico.
好的
Okay.
我会去的 好吗？
Look, I'll be there, okay?
我会去的
I'll be there.
是的 好的
Yeah, okay.
再见
Bye.
我们得走了？
We have to go?
是的
Soon.
我只是说在这里抽烟是很正常的
I'm just saying it's normal to smoke here.
每当我在纽约吸烟的时候
Whenever I smoked in New York,
我觉得人们在看着我说
I felt people were watching me saying
看 欧洲垃圾又在抽烟
look at Eurotrash smoking.
欧洲垃圾
Eurotrash.
你们不都这么说吗？
Isn't that what you guys say?
哦 我们
Oh, us guys.
对 美国人
Yeah, Americans.
好 现在你开始以偏概全了 这几乎是偏见
Okay, now you're generalising, bordering on prejudice.
什么 难道我不能表达自己的观点吗？
What, I'm not allowed to express my own views?
你知道 有时候我觉得你太敏感了
You know, sometimes I think you get too sensitive.
哦 是吗？
Oh, is that right?
是的
Yeah.
我在美国的经历有什么问题？
What's the problem with my experience living in America
我确实遇到过这么说的人
I've encountered people who talk this way?
我只是说如果你觉得每个人都会那么说
I was just saying if you think that everybody
那就是偏见
talks that way, that would be prejudice.
没有
No.
实际上 偏见是一种先入为主的观点
Actually prejudice is a preconceived opinion
这不是基于理性或实际经验
that is not based on reason or actual experience.
哇哇
Wow, wow.
你背下来的？
Did you memorise that?
是的 我很好奇
Yeah, I was curious.
嗯 对偏见很好奇？
Hmm, curious about being prejudice?
我们为什么不能基于自己的经历来形成观点呢？
How can we not be comfortable in forming views based on experience?
我们必须能够表达自己的观点
We must be able to express ourselves
生活在一个自由的世界里
and live in a free world.
我同意 我只是说你快要进入到非常危险的领域里了
I agree, I'm just saying it's very dangerous territory you're getting into.
哦哦 好吧好吧
Oh, oh, oh, okay, okay, okay.
例如 打个比方 我住在海边
So what if, for example, I live next to the sea.
嗯
Mm-hmm.
然后我认识一些人
And in my life I know people
他们被鲨鱼吃掉了 同样品牌的鲨鱼
who have been eaten by sharks, the same brand of sharks.
同样品牌？
The same brand?
是的 同一种鲨鱼
Yeah, the particular shark.
你是说品种吧
Species maybe.
呃 品种 品牌 行吧！
Ugh, species, brand, come on!
所以我说这些鲨鱼是杀手
So I say that these sharks are killers.
这是对所有其他鲨鱼的偏见吗？
Is this prejudice to all the others sharks in the sea?
你可以说这一品种的鲨鱼
You could say that this particular species of shark
在特定的条件下杀死了人类
have killed humans under certain conditions.
我的天啊！
Oh my god!
真的吗？
Serious?
拜托 这太荒谬了！
Come on, this is ridiculous!
我们应该开放自由的表达自己的想法
We have to be open and comfortable to express ourselves.
我并不是说毫无根据的概括和形成观点
I'm not saying that generalising and forming views
但必须有一定程度的开放
without reason, but there has to be some level of openness.
言论自由之类的
Freedom of speech and all that stuff.
我们的前辈们为之不断奋斗的东西
Everything people before us fought for
现在正被敏感的政治家们慢慢埋葬
is slowly getting buried by sensitive politicians
他们不想站在某一个种族的对立面
who don't want to get on the wrong side
因为怕被扣上歧视的帽子
of a particular group for fear of being prejudice.
你知道 有一位名叫爱比克泰德的伟大哲学家
You know, there's this great philosopher named Epictetus.
我真的很喜欢读他的作品
I really love reading him.
他谈到应该用正确的名字来称呼事物
He talks about calling things by their right name.
我真的很喜欢他的看法
I really like his take on it.
正确的名字？
Right name?
是的
Yeah.
所以以事物本来的名字称呼他们
So calling things for what they are
不要在其中掺杂你的判断
without adding your own judgement to them.
举个例子 如果你看到一个人喝了很多酒
For example, if you see a guy who drinks a lotta beer
你不能说他是个酒鬼
you wouldn't call him an alcoholic.
你只能说他是一个喝了很多酒的人 对吧？
You'd just say he's a guy who drinks a lot of beer, right?
所以 除非你对他的生活有一个全面的了解
So unless you have a comprehensive understanding of his life,
你怎么知道他是个酒鬼？
how do you know if he's an alcoholic?
这是关于不要被事物的表象所误导
It's about not getting misguided by the appearance of things
不然就会得出这种扭曲的观点 明白吗？
and creating this distorted view, right?
你用事实说话 用正确的名字称呼事物
You stick to the facts, you use the right name.
天呐
Jesus.
这些岩石很滑
These rocks are slippery.
哦 对不起对不起
Oh, sorry, sorry.
不过不是所有的岩石
Not all of them.
啊哈
Ah ha.
啊哈 很好
Ah ha, very good.
我还没有问过你妈妈的情况
You know, I didn't even ask about your Mom.
她怎么样？
How is she?
她过去每天都会提起你
You know, she used to ask about you everyday.
是的 她很棒
Yeah, she's the best.
-还有她的厨艺 伙计 -真香
- And her cooking, man. - Amazing.
我的上帝
My God.
她过去会提起我 这是什么意思？
She used to ask about me, what does that mean?
现在她忘了？
She forgot?
她也不想的
Not by choice.
她得了老年痴呆症
Alzheimer's.
什么？
What?
我以为这种病老了才会得
I thought you had to be really old to get that.
医生说是早期发作
Earlier onset is what they call it.
这其实是很常见的
It's pretty common actually.
有多糟糕？
How bad is she?
很糟糕
Bad.
尤其是去年 我不得不把她安置在疗养院里
Especially this last year, I had to put her in a home.
狗屎
Shit.
你妈妈就像神奇女侠
Your Mom was always like Wonder Woman,
一次做一百万件事
doing a million things at once.
什么都阻止不了她
There's no stoppin' her.
这太令人伤心了
That's so sad.
你知道有时候我觉得自己很幸运
You know, sometimes I feel like I'm lucky
能陪她度过最后一段时间
to have this last bit of time with her.
这就像一次警告
Like it's a warning or something.
我有机会知道她的时间不多了
I'm getting the chance to know that she won't be here
这样我就能更加珍惜和她在一起的时间
much longer and I can make the most of the time we have left together.
但这是一种可怕的疾病
But it's such an awful disease.
她不再是她了
She's not even her anymore.
我经常去看她 但我离开的时候感觉很难过
I visit all the time and when I leave I feel so sad.
不平衡
Unbalanced.
看到她这个样子真的让我很有压力
It really weighs on me to see her like this.
我不想关于她最后的记忆是这样的
I don't want to be left with these last memories of her.
她还记得你吗？
Does she still remember you?
我想是的
I think so.
也许 我也不敢肯定
Maybe, I can't tell you for sure,
但是当我在的时候 她确实感觉很舒服
but she does feel comfortable when I'm around
这很好
so that's good.
是的
Yeah.
所以怎么回事 她会忘记很多事情
So how is it, she just forgets a lot of things.
不 我一开始就是这么想的
No, that's what I thought
她总是会忘记一些事情
that she would just keep forgetting things,
但情况越来越糟
but it got worse and worse.
这是一种神经紊乱 它会杀死你的脑细胞
It's a neurological disorder so it kills your brain cells.
所以 对 从忘记事情开始
So, yes, it's starting with her forgetting things,
-但是每个人都会忘事 -是的
- but everyone forgets things. - Yeah.
所以我们一直没有重视这个问题
So we never really put it down to more
只是觉得她做的事情太多而忘记了
than just her doing too many things and forgetting.
但后来情况变得越来越糟
But then it got worse and worse.
就像她开车的时候会忘记她在哪里
Like she would drive and forget where she was.
忘了怎么回家
Forget how to get home.
上次她打电话给我
This last time she called me and was stuck
说她被困在交通高峰期的路上 惊慌失措
in the middle of the road in rush hour, freaking out.
她甚至不知道她是怎么到那里的
She didn't even know how she got there.
哦狗屎
Oh shit.
我为她担心了好几个月
I was worried about her for months.
她哭得那么厉害
She was crying so much.
我带她去看巴塞罗那的一位教授
I took her to see a professor in Barcelona
他们做了一系列的测试
and they did a bunch of tests and stuff.
在那之后不久他们就做出了诊断
They diagnosed her soon after that.
所以和《恋恋笔记本》不一样
So it's not like with The Notebook then.
回忆的闪回
Flashbacks of memories.
这不是爱情故事 相信我
It's no love story, trust me.
这很悲哀
It's sad.
我简直是在看她的年龄倒退
I'm literally watching her age backwards.
当你出生时 你什么都不知道
When you're born, you know nothing.
他们甚至还得托着起你的头
And they even have to hold your head up.
但是你学习适应
But you learn, adapt.
你现在能做的所有事
Everything you could do right now,
在之前都有一段时间是做不到的 对吧？
at one point you couldn't do that, right?
你学会了交流的技能 理解字词
You develop skills to communicate and understand words
找到自我
and find yourself.
她实际上是在倒退 失去了她的认知
She's literally going backwards, losing her identity.
她倒退为一个婴儿
She's growing up to be an infant.
这很悲哀 非常悲哀
It's sad, it's so sad.
她在自己的世界里
She's in her own world.
在她散乱的思绪中 整天都在咕哝着什么
Mumbles all day with memories in her scattered mind.
无法理解这个世界
No comprehension of the world.
我真的很抱歉 安丽莎
I'm really sorry, Annalisa.
这就是生活 对吧？
It's life, right?
这是生活 是真实的
It's life and it's real.
我只需要接受它
I just have to accept it.
我接受了它
And I accept it.
就像我之前说的 她要回到
Like I was saying before, she's going back
她来的地方去 那就是生活
from where she came and that's life.
我只是不想让她失去她的尊严
I just don't want her to lose her dignity.
她总是把自己照顾得很好
She always looked after herself so much.
为自己感到自豪
Took pride in herself.
总是那么时髦 穿着讲究
Always so stylish, dressed so well.
就像你一样
The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
你还记得我爸爸说过的
You remember what my Dad said about
人总会死去吗？
no one getting out alive?
这是真的
It's true.
我的意思是
I mean...
我觉得每个人都浪费了很多时间
I think everyone wastes a lot of time.
每个人都认为时间是理所当然的
Everyone takes time for granted.
我们可以花上几天、几周、几个月……
We can spend days, weeks, months...
甚至可以花一辈子的时间
People spend a lifetime getting caught up
在那些毫无意义的事情上
in things that are so meaningless.
比如对家庭和爱人的怨恨
I mean, old grudges against family and loved one.
但就是那些情感 这些关系
But that's the thing, those bonds, those relationships,
它们很特别
they're special.
但它们是有限的
And they're finite.
我们的一生中 我们只能够
Just knowing that we're only going to be able
和少数人建立真正的联系
to really connect with just a few people throughout the course of our lives.
我们真的需要珍惜
You know, we really just have to cherish
坚持和保护那份爱
and hold on, protect, that love.
无论世界如何对待我们
Against anything the world can throw at us.
生命太短暂了
Life's too short.
你为什么要这么做？
Why'd you do that?
你想让我停下来吗？
Do you want me to stop?
这将会使事情变得复杂
This is gonna complicate things.
当然
Definitely.
我一直在思考这个问题
I think about it all the time.
这让我很害怕 但我无能为力
It freaks me out, but I can't help it.
反正我们都会死 对吧？
We're all going to die anyway, right?
就像你爸爸说的
Just like you're Dad said.
当你死了 你就死了
When you're dead, you are dead.
你不会知道 也不会在意
You're not going to know, you're not going to care.
你死了
You are dead.
我想
I guess.
不要害怕死亡 害怕死亡的恐惧
Don't fear death, fear the fear of death.
就像你现在担心的那样
Just like you're fearing now.
你知道 对于一个英语不是母语的人来说
You know, for someone who didn't grow up speaking English
你真的很会说话
you really have a way with words.
我自学的
I taught myself.
真的吗？
Really?
是的
Yeah.
我们在学校有英语课 但那只是基本的
We have English in school, but it was just basic.
老师们菜的不行
The teacher was hopeless.
当我决定要去纽约的时候
When I decided I was going to New York,
我疯狂地学习一切东西
I just went crazy learning everything I could.
-是的 -我到哪里要带个笔记本
- Yeah. - I'd carry a notebook
在耳机上听英语课
everywhere, listening to English lessons on my headphones.
我在巴塞罗那的朋友都认为我疯了
My friends who stayed in Barcelona thought I was nuts,
但是他们乐意呆在那里 所以他们不在乎
but they were happy staying there so they didn't care.
我只知道我想出去
I just knew I wanted to get out.
看看另一边是什么
See what's on the other side.
哪里会比不夜城更好？
Where better than the city that never sleeps?
所以你只是大城市和性看得太多了
So basically you just watched way too much
才会决定自己去看看
Sex and the City and you decided to see it for yourself.
差不多
Pretty much.
好的
Okay.
我一直觉得我的英语很好
I thought my English was actually pretty good
直到我到了纽约
till I got too New York.
天啊我太丢人了
Oh my God, I was so embarrassed.
我什么都听不懂！
I didn't understand anything!
我一直都能明白你在说什么
I always knew what you were saying.
但我不明白你在说什么
But I didn't understand what you were saying.
并不是这样的
That's not true.
好吧 也许有一半的时间是这样
Okay, maybe half of the time.
那么在另一半的时间里
So what, so the other half of the time
你在假装知道我在说什么？
you just pretended to know what I was saying?
还不错吧？
Not bad, huh?
你是认真的吗？是的
Are you serious? Yeah.
这太不可思议了
That's unbelievable.
说到死亡 伙计
That death thing, man.
呃 又来
Ugh, again.
好了 听我说完
All right, here me out, look.
我们的每一天都离那一天更近
Every day is one day closer to the day.
从我们出生的那一刻起 我们就在通往死亡的路上
From the moment we're born, we're put on the path to death.
我爸爸对这态度很好
My Dad had the best attitude about all of this,
但这只会让我害怕
but it just scares the shit out of me.
我尽量不去想它
And I try not to think about it.
我告诉自己不要去想它
I tell myself not to think about it,
但我仍然在思考这个问题
but I still think about it.
有太多的事情我永远都做不到
There are so many things that I'm never gonna be able to do
因为我已经太老了
because I'm already too old.
我想我们可以在任何年龄做任何事
I think we can do anything at any age.
怎么可能
That's not true.
好吧 你永远都做不到的事是什么？
Okay, what is it that you will never be able to do?
成为一名世界级的体操运动员
Become a world-class gymnast.
体操运动员？
Gymnast?
是的
Yes.
我都不知道你喜欢体操
I didn't even know you liked that.
我不喜欢 但这不是重点
I don't like it, but that's not the point.
它就是——
It is exactly--
即使我想做 我也做不到
I couldn't do it even if I wanted to do it.
这就是重点所在
It's exactly the point.
在你现在的生活中 你想做什么？
What in your life right now do you want to do?
你想成为什么样的人？
What do you want to be?
一个电影制作人
A filmmaker.
你在做什么？
What are you doing?
拍电影
Making films.
好吧 所以别去想做体操运动员
Okay, so don't worry about being a gymnast.
集中精力 把你所有的时间和精力放在电影上
Concentrate in putting all your time and energy
把你爱的事情做到最好
on films into being the best you can be at what you love.
-不 -别担心年纪太大做不了体操运动员
- No. - Don't worry about being too old to become a gymnast.
我刚才只是打个比方
I was just saying gymnast though.
它可以是任何东西
It could have been anything.
文森特 我了解你
Vincent, I know you.
如果你真的想成为一名体操运动员
If you really wanted to be a gymnast,
一个赛车手 不论是什么 你都能做到
a race car driver, whatever, you would be.
我真的了解你
I really know you.
当你爱某件事的时候 你就会变得痴迷
When you love something, you become obsessed.
别的一切都不重要了 就像拍电影
Nothing else matters, just like making films.
没有什么能阻止你
Nothing will stop you.
没有人会阻止你
No one will stop you.
很高兴知道这一点
Be happy knowing that.
我想
I guess.
但我还是会想到死亡
But I still think about death though.
哦我的上帝
Oh my God.
你知道 你越是想它 谈论它
You know, with all this thinking and talking
就更可能会吸引它
you're probably going to attract it even more.
什么 吸引力法则吗？
What, like law of attraction?
是啊 你不相信这是真的吗？
Yeah, you don't believe it's true?
不不不 我相信
No, no, no, I do.
我相信这是真的
I believe it's true.
我们肯定会变成我们所想的
We definitely become what we think, what's on our mind.
事实上 我松了一口气
As a matter of fact, I take relief in that, you know
当我知道我可以创造自己的未来时 我松了一口气
I take relief in knowing that I can shape my own future.
我有很多朋友 对这样的事情
I have so many friends, they have different beliefs
他们有不同的看法…
about this kind of thing and...
问题是 这些都不够实际来支撑你的生活
The thing is, none of it is tangible enough to set your life to.
吸引力法则 我知道它是有效的 因为我试过
Law of attraction, I know it works because I tested it.
我每天都这样做
I do it, I do it every single day.
我总是在想象我想要的生活方式
I am always visualising the way I want my life to be.
你知道吗 拿这部电影来说
You know what, take this film for example, all right.
我的第一部电影
My first feature film.
那是我的梦想
That's my dream.
在开始之前 我已经想象了一千次了
And I'd already directed it a thousand times before I got on set.
现在我已经创造了这种生活
And now that I've created this life
我却等不及想再做一遍
I can't wait to do it all over again.
那太好了
That's great.
是的 这很奇怪
Yeah, and it's not even.
它也适用于小事情
It works for little things too.
当我还是个小孩子的时候我就开始思考这个问题
I started to figure this out when I was just a little kid.
小文森特 真可爱
Little Vincent, oh, cute.
是很可爱 是的
It is cute, yeah.
不 听着听着
No, listen, listen.
我爸爸在车道上给我架了一个篮球网
My Dad set up this basketball ring for me in the driveway
很多次我在玩的时候
and a lot of the times when I was playing
球会弹过篱笆
the ball would bounce over the fence
掉到邻居家的院子里
into the neighbor's yard,
但是我的邻居有一条很可怕的狗
but my neighbour had this real scary dog.
所以当球掉过去的时候
So anytime the ball bounced over
我得等邻居回家
I would have to wait for the neighbour to get home
然后让他把球扔回来 但是当然
and then toss the ball back over, but, of course,
到那时天已经晚了
by then it's too late to play.
所以我想出了一个小办法
So I came up with a little something.
每次篮球看起来像要弹过去的时候
I did this thing where every time it looked like the ball
我就会这么做
was about to bounce over, I just like,
我集中注意力 想象着那个球
I concentrated and I imagined that ball
撞到篱笆又回到我身边
hitting the fence and coming back towards me.
我告诉你 这有用
And I'm telling you that it worked.
我向上帝发誓这真的有用
I swear to God it worked.
但我没有告诉过任何人
Now I didn't tell anybody about this.
这是高度机密 是我的秘密
It was highly confidential, it was my secret.
因为人们可能会认为我疯了
'Cause people would probably think I was crazy,
但我知道它有用 所以没关系
but I knew it worked so it didn't matter.
你用你的想法阻止了球越过篱笆？
You stopped the ball from going over the fence with your mind?
是的
Yes.
大多数时候
Most of the time.
有时候我扔的太烂了
Sometime the shot was so horrible
任何法则都救不了它
that no law of anything would have saved it.
你还能做别的…
Can you do anything else--
你好 尼克
Hi, Nico.
听着 你干脆告诉我你们要去哪里
Look, why don't you just tell me where you'll be
我去那里和你们见面好了
and I'll meet you guys there?
好的
All right.
好的再见
Yeah, bye.
你得走了？
You have to go?
我还有一点时间
I've got a little more time.
你还有其他的技巧吗？
So any other tricks?
我不碰你就可以让你脱光
I can have you naked without even touching you.
-哦真的 -是的
- Oh really. - Yeah.
来吧
Do it.
你确定？
You sure?
谅你也不敢
I dare you.
好的
Okay.
你自找的
You asked for it though.
这比我记忆中更好
That's even better than I remembered.
一直在练习吗？
Been practising?
怎么 我以前不行？
What, I wasn't good before?
不 以前也很好 但你现在
No, you were good, but now you are.
非常好？
Very good?
我想说很惊人
I was going to say amazing.
你还留着吗？
Still have yours?
是的 这是我的战斗伤疤
Yeah, it's my battle scar.
战斗伤疤 你是这么看我们的关系的？
Battle scar, that's how you think of us?
我们的一部分
Parts of us.
也许吧
Maybe.
那首歌我们在纽约听过多少次了？
How many times have we listened to that song in New York?
我想我们把mp3都听坏了
I think we wore out the mp3.
我们急着去上课
We were in a rush to get to class.
这是谁的错？
Who's fault was that?
它能激发创造力
What, it stimulates creativity.
我是想帮你
I was trying to help you.
我没听见你抱怨
I didn't hear you complaining.
你过去每天早上都要从浴室里走出来
You used to step out of that shower every morning
浑身滴水
dripping wet.
你身体的曲线被纽约市的天际线上
Your curves backlit by the smoggy morning glow
烟雾弥漫的晨辉所照亮
of the New York city skyline.
你的想象力真丰富
Such an imagination.
你会唱歌
And you'd be singing.
总有什么会把我带回到你身边
Something always brings me back to you.
我们是疯了还是什么？
Were we crazy or what?
这就像纹身的黄金法则
That's like the golden rule of tattoos,
不能纹你爱人的名字
is not get your partner's name.
那不是名字
It's not a name.
没错
It's true.
这是我们的纽带 我们的时刻
It was our bond, our moment.
我们的时光
Our time.
那现在呢？
What about now?
现在
Now.
现在又是我们的时刻了
Now it's our time again.
我从没想过要别人
I never wanted anybody else, you know.
在那次表演之后 我觉得你已经练习了很多次
After that performance, I think you've had a lot of practise.
那又怎样？
So what?
我和其他人的关系都不像和你这么深
I've never been connected to anyone like I am with you.
我和其他女孩睡觉
I was sleeping with other girls,
但我会想到你
but I'd be thinking about you.
这有点奇怪
That's a little weird.
我……
I...
甚至是你的气味
Even your smell,
-这很难解释 -我味道很大吗？
- it's hard to explain. - I smell?
这是一种很好的气味
It's a good smell.
是信息素 这是科学
It's pheromones, it's science.
身体的气味与性吸引有关
Body odours are connected with sexual attraction.
我从来没有和其他人有过这样的感觉
And I just never had that with anyone else.
仅仅是搂着你呼吸
It's like, just to hold you and breathe
我就感觉好像在家中 又好像身在他乡
makes me feel home and away all in the same breath.
就好像在这世上除了你身边
Like there's no where else I'd rather be
我再也没有想去的地方
in this world than right there with you in that moment.
那太好了
That's sweet.
我不会再让你走了
I'm not letting you go again.
我不管我们要做什么才能做到这一点
I don't care what we have to do to make it work.
但我们会做到的
We'll do it.
这很特别
This, this right here, this is special.
这是一份礼物 这是我们的第二次机会
This is a gift, this is our second chance,
如果你不明白——
and if you don't see that--
我明白
I do.
我明白 文森特
I do, Vincent.
我爱你
I love you.
你发现什么了吗？
Did you find something?
我不知道你还留着这个
I didn't know you still had this.
你在看我的东西？
Going through my stuff?
它就放在这里
It was just sitting here.
你仍然带着它
You still carry it.
我还在用
I still use it.
你五年前就把它写满了
You filled it five years ago.
我找到了空白的地方
I find room.
我注意到了
I couldn't help notice.
我给你写的纸条
That note I wrote for you.
你写了很多东西
You wrote a lot of stuff.
在课堂上传纸条 这很可爱
Passing notes in class and stuff, it was cute.
还记得我们试图把它藏起来吗？
Remember we tried to hide it from them?
但那样根本没什么用
Like that was never going to work.
我们一直在看着彼此
We couldn't keep our eyes off each other.
我知道
I know.
还记得第一天上课吗？
Remember that first day in class?
我们都得站起来自我介绍
We all had to get up, introduce ourselves.
天啊 我太紧张了
My God, I was so nervous.
尤其是我的英语
Especially about my English.
你坐在房间的后面
You were at the back of the room
和其他欧洲人一起
with all of the other Europeans.
我听到了你的声音 这个性感充满异国情调的声音
And I heard this voice, this sexy, exotic voice
然后转过身来那是我第一次见到你
and turned around, and that was the first time I saw you.
第一次？
First time?
你走进学校的那一刻起 我就注意到了你
I noticed you from the moment you walked in the school.
你怎么没注意到我？
How come you didn't notice me?
我很专注 好吧
I was focused, okay.
我是一个有使命的人
I was a man on a mission.
为了什么？
For what?
拍电影
To make movies.
我不知道我会被闪电击中
I didn't know I was about to be struck by lightning.
我是闪电？
I was lightning?
还有雷声
And thunder.
哇
Wow.
你站起来你说我是巴塞罗那的安丽莎
You stood up and you said, I'm Annalisa from Barcelona.
我就懵了
I was done.
我不知道你后来说了什么
I don't know what you said after that
因为整个房间里 我什么都听不见
because the whole room, I couldn't hear anything.
就像在《愤怒的公牛》中杰克拉莫塔
It was like in Raging Bull when Jake LaMotta's
即将被罗宾逊击中的那个时刻
about to get drilled by Sugar Ray Robinson.
只有寂静
Just silence.
暴风雨前的宁静
The calm before the storm.
那是一场暴风雨
It was a storm.
它仍然是
It still is.
你确定你不想来吗？
Are you sure you don't wanna come?
他们想见你而不是我
They want to see you and not me.
你确定吗？
Are you sure?
去吧
Go.
好的
Okay.
好的
Okay.
我已经开始想你了
I miss you already.
嘿
Hey.
你要去哪里？
Where'd you go?
买烟
To buy cigarettes.
你的会议怎么了？
What happened to your meeting?
你的会议呢？
Your meeting?
我跟他们见过面了 我只是…
I met with them, I just.
我想他们可以把剩下的细节谈好
I figured they could sort out the rest of the details.
我想和你在一起
I want to be with you.
回到床上
Come back to bed.
我需要和你谈谈
I need to talk to you.
我们可以早上再谈
We can talk about it in the morning.
快回到床上
Just come back to bed.
我真的需要和你谈谈
I really need to talk to you.
现在？
Now?
好的
Okay.
我不知道该怎么说
I don't know how to say this so.
嗯
Um.
听着 没事的
Look, it's okay.
我已经知道了
I already know.
知道什么？
Know what?
我知道发生了什么
I know what happened.
这已经不重要了
It doesn't matter anymore.
我们现在又在一起了
We're together again now.
我们可以重新开始
We'll have another one.
什么？
What?
我们讨论过如果这种情况发生了
Well, we talked about what we would do
我们该怎么办 但那我们还年轻了
if this situation happened, but we were younger then.
我的意思是 现在已经不一样了
I mean, it's different now.
你知道 我在赚钱
You know, I'm making money.
停下停下停下
Stop it, stop it, stop it.
嘿没关系
Hey, it's okay.
你不知道你在说什么？
You don't know what you're talking about?
我是在搬出去的时候发现的
I found it when I moved out.
发现什么？
Found what?
怀孕检查
The pregnancy test.
怀孕检查
The pregnancy test.
哦我的上帝
Oh my God.
没关系
It's okay.
不 不是的
No, it's not.
好的
Okay.
过来 跟我说
Come here, just talk to me.
我们整天吵架
All we did was fight.
我们有很多问题
We had so many problems.
你总是很忙
You were always busy.
你在说什么？
What are you talking about?
我不知道孩子父亲是谁
I didn't know who the father was.
我很困惑
I was confused.
我不能告诉你
I couldn't tell you.
如果这孩子不是你的呢？
What if it wasn't yours?
你他妈的出轨了？
You fucking cheated on me?
他是谁？
Who is he?
文森特
Vincent.
他是谁？
Who is he?
我的丈夫 我现在的丈夫
My husband, my now husband.
这样还好一些
This gets better.
文森特
Vincent.
文森特
Vincent.
他是哪里人？
Where's he from?
巴塞罗那 我已经认识他了
Barcelona, I knew him already.
他正在纽约度假
He was on vacation in New York.
那么今天到底发生了什么呢？
And what the fuck was today about then?
这并不容易 好吗？
This wasn't easy, okay?
来见你
To come and see you.
我告诉自己我要坦白
I told myself that I would come clean,
把所有的事情当面告诉你
tell you everything face to face.
但就像多年前一样
But it was just like all those years ago.
我正要给你写封信
I was about to write you a letter.
你不值得这样
And you don't deserve it.
我和你躺在床上 我做不到
I was with you lying in bed and I couldn't.
你做不到什么？
You couldn't what?
你他妈的不能再背着我跑了？
You couldn't fucking run out on me again?
这段时间
All this time.
所有的痛苦
All the pain.
多年来我一直在想你在做什么
All the years I spent wondering what you were doing
你和谁在一起
and who you were with.
你是不是还在听我之前听的歌
If you were still listening to the same songs that I was.
我停不下来 安丽莎
It didn't stop, Annalisa.
我做的每一件小事上都有你的片段
There were fragments of you in every single thing that I did.
你知道我有多挣扎吗？
Do you know how much I've struggled?
你知道我有多努力
Do you know how much I've had to work on myself
才到了现在这个地步吗？
to get to where I am right now?
怎么 你觉得可以回到我的生活中
And you think what, you can just come back into my life
然后按下“继续”键？
and just press continue?
好吧听我说
Okay, listen to me.
还有什么可说的？
What else is there to say?
你上次绿了我和他在一起 这次绿了他和我在一起
You cheated on me with him and now you're cheating on him with me.
什么狗屎剧情
That is fucked up.
那天晚上我在纽约的飞机上
When I got on that plane in New York that night
我哭了一路
I cried the entire way home.
他打电话给我 我们和好了
He called me, we made up.
我对你很生气
I was just so angry with you,
对我们理不清的事情感到生气
so angry about the things we couldn't get right.
这把我们分开 把对方逼疯了
That drove us apart, drove each other crazy.
可所有的嫉妒也可能是他的
All the jealousy, it could have been his too.
她现在看起来越来越像你了
She looks more and more like you ever day.
她的名字叫奥黛丽
Her name is Audrey.
她很漂亮
She's beautiful.
你怎么一副见了鬼的样子！
You look like you've seen a bloody ghost!
你是谁？
Who are you?
我是谁 你特么是谁？
Who am I, who are bloody you?
嘿文森特 房租准备好了吗？
Hey, Vincent, you got the rent?
我们上次说过的
We talked about it.
房租
The rent.
文森特
Vincent.
我过一会儿再来
I come back later.
我知道这对你来说很艰难
I know how hard this must be for you right now.
文森特
Vincent.
你有她的照片吗？
Do you have a picture of her?
她长得很像我
She looks just like me.
我知道
I know.
我是爸爸
I'm a dad.
你是一个父亲
You are a dad.
她是什么样的孩子？
What's she like?
很神奇
Amazing.
聪明
Bright.
有趣
Funny.
她是个奇迹
She's a miracle.
你怎么能一直瞒着我呢？
How could you keep this from me?
我很抱歉
I'm sorry.
你知道 我现在很难相信
You know, it's hard for me to believe now,
但那时我不想生孩子
but at the time I wasn't going to have a baby.
但他想 我也就慢慢接受了
He wanted to and I started feeling more comfortable about it.
我不知道我是否还有机会
I didn't know if I was going to have another chance.
我等待的时间越长 我的母性就越强烈
The longer I waited the more maternal I felt.
这是我做过的最好的决定
It's the best decision I ever made.
她是我的一切
She's my world.
但他不是
But he's not.
我不知道我还能瞒着她多久
I don't know how much longer I can keep the truth from her.
这不公平 他们需要知道
It's not fair, they need to know.
如果你现在告诉她 你会伤害她的
If you tell her now you're gonna damage her.
她早晚会知道答案
She has to find out eventually.
有什么区别呢？
What's the difference?
区别在于你一开始就应该诚实
The difference is that you should have been honest in the first place.
我当时不知道
I didn't know.
我不确定 但现在毫无疑问了
I didn't know for sure, but there's no doubt now.
他知道我吗？
Does he know about me?
不知道
No.
那纽约呢？
What about New York?
我告诉他我在和某人约会
I told him I was kind of dating someone,
但这很复杂
but it was complicated.
是的
Yeah.
你生活中的一切都很复杂
Everything in your life is complicated.
你想让我说什么？
What do you want me to say?
你让事情变得复杂 安丽莎
You make things complicated, Annalisa.
在一起四年之后 你收拾好行李离开
You pack your bags and leave after four years together.
我们用四年时间环游世界
Four years travelling around the world
试着在一起 一起建立我们的生活
trying to be together, building our lives together.
我在又一次愚蠢的争论之后回到了家
I come back home after another stupid argument
你走了
and you're gone.
你不仅离开了
And not only have you gone,
还把我完全隔绝在你的生活之外
but you've shut me out of your life completely.
没有解释 没有道别 什么都没有
No explanation, no parting words, no nothing.
五年后你又回来了
And then you come back five years later
当我的生活刚开始重回正轨的时候
when I am just starting to get my shit together.
你告诉我说我有一个5岁的女儿
And you tell me that I have a five-year-old daughter
和你现在的丈夫一起住在巴塞罗那？
living with you and your husband in Barcelona?
你说你妈呢？
What the fuck?
这是事实
It's the truth.
哦那会让情况好些吗？
Oh, and that's supposed to make things all better?
我来这里是因为我想告诉你真相
I came here because I wanted to tell you the truth,
我需要告诉你真相
I needed to tell you the truth.
你应该知道真相
You deserve to know.
哦我现在应该知道了
Oh, I deserve to know now.
难道五年前就不应该知道吗？
Not five fucking years ago?
哦也许你再也不能忍受这罪恶感了是吧？
Well, maybe you just can't live with the guilt anymore, huh?
因为你们俩的关系很不好
You're relationship is on the outs
而刚好你曾经爱过的那个人
and the man you used to love or apparently used to love,
你私生女的父亲
the father of your illegitimate child
现在可以在经济上照顾她了
can actually look after her now financially.
所以你觉得也许你可以跑来扮演一个快乐的家庭
So you say maybe I can just go play happy family.
也许自己可以回到他的生活中
Maybe I can just walk back into his life,
在离开他5年之后 带着他的女儿
daughter and all, five years after I deserted him.
好像并不难
Like it's that easy.
这不是我来的原因
That's not why I came.
那原因是什么呢？
Why then?
为什么是现在？
Why now?
我告诉过你为什么
I told you why.
哦 对
Oh, that's right.
你花了5年时间才明白这一点 是吧？
And it took you five years to figure that out, huh?
在发生了这么多事情之后
You know laying all this shit on me now
你现在才跑来和我坦白
after everything that just happened,
把时钟拨回去 重温我们曾经的样子
turning back the clocks, reliving who we used to be,
怀念在一起的时光
what we used to be together.
我甚至还告诉你我爱你
I even told you that I loved you.
而你又这么对我
And you did it to me again.
你又把我骗了
You screwed me over again.
我真蠢
I'm so stupid.
我真他妈的蠢
I'm so fucking stupid.
不 你不蠢
No, you're not.
你很漂亮
You're beautiful.
你是一个美男子
You're a beautiful man.
所以你才离开我
So this is why you left me.
我爱你 文森特
I love you, Vincent.
我一直爱着你
I've always loved you.
我从未停止过爱你
I've never stopped loving you.
过去的每一天我都会想到你
Not a day hasn't gone by I haven't thought about you.
关于我们 关于我们所拥有的
About us, about what we had.
关于我当时应该做什么决定
How I would have done things different.
我要写多少封信
How many times I would write letters
解释我今天告诉你的一切
explaining everything I told you today.
但你从来没有寄给我
But you never sent them.
你很喜欢扮演受害者 是不是？
You love playing the victim, don't you?
你说什么？
Excuse me?
是的 心碎的是你
Yes, it was you with the broken heart.
被骗的人是你
It was you that got screwed over.
我们的关系有问题需要解决
But our relationship had problems and it needed fixing.
然后你就跑去日别的男人？
By fucking another guy?
难道你从没上过那个女演员？
And you never fucked that actress?
没有
No.
我当时爱的是你！
I was in love with you!
你想要真相？
You want the truth?
怎么 难道你还有什么别的狗屎瞒着我吗
What, is there more shit that you've been lying to me about?
事实上我一直以来并没有什么改变
The truth is I'm the same woman I've always been.
我不是你想要的样子
I'm not what you want me to be,
不是你理想的样子 我只是我
not what you dream me to be, just me.
我
Me.
你说这些年来你遭受了痛苦
You said you suffered all these years
我很抱歉 真的
and I'm sorry for that, I truly am.
想到你的痛苦我就难受得要死
The thought of your pain kills me.
但是你需要知道你已经伤害自己太久了
But you need to know you have been hurting yourself for far too long.
你需要睁开眼睛
You need to open your eyes.
看看事情到底是什么样的
See things for what they really are
而不是按自己心里想的那样来
not for what you want them to be.
你不能控制别人的行为
You can't control other people's actions,
你只能控制自己
you can only control yours.
我不是你理想中的的完美女孩 好吗？
I'm not the perfect girl you want me to be, okay?
我很容易情绪化 不理智 嫉妒
I get emotional, irrational, jealous.
我会像其他人一样犯错 但我在学习
I screw up like anyone else, but I'm learning.
这就是生活
It's called life.
你不用跑去日别的男人也能知道这是错误的
Well, you didn't need to fuck another guy to know that it was wrong.
人生是没有使用手册的 文森特
Life doesn't come with a manual, Vincent.
人总会犯错
Sometimes you screw up.
但往好的一面看
But look on the flip side.
你刚刚实现了你的梦想
You just made your dreams come true.
你拍了第一部电影
You made your first movie.
无论发生什么 你都做到了 这是真的
What ever happens, you did it, and it's from the heart.
这是真实无误的
It's true and honest.
这来自于一个对你来说意义重大的时间和地点
It comes from a time and place that means something to you
人们会感受都爱那一点
and people are going to feel that.
这来自于你和我们的经历
It's come out of your experience with us.
你有一个漂亮的5岁大的女儿
You have a beautiful five-year-old daughter
等着你
waiting for you.
你说你一直深爱的那个女人现在就在这里
And the woman you said you never stopped loving
此时此刻正等待着你
is here now, in this moment, waiting for you,
她想要一生或更长时间
asking for a lifetime or more.
你很复杂
You are complicated.
我是一个女人！
I'm a woman!
我没办法回头 文森特 但我现在可以给你“现在”
I can't turn back time, Vincent, but I can give you now.
“现在”？
Now?
是的 “现在”
Yes, now.
“现在”是什么？
And what is now?
是所有你想要的样子
Whatever we want it to be.
马耳“她”